Dealing with Mental Burn Out
Posted by Dianna Gunn
Between Nanowrimo, high school, and my internship with Musa publishing, I entered December of last year–it still feels weird saying that–exhausted and burnt. I managed to get sick twice in the first three weeks of December, and you might think it’s bad luck, but I really believe that the physical sickness was caused by my mental exhaustion. It was my body’s way of forcing me to take a break, since Christmas break didn’t start for me until the 23rd this year.
To be honest, I kind of expected to burn out after November. A lot of Nanoers do. However, I didn’t expect it to be the brutal burn out it was. I found myself hating every minute spent travelling or at school, despite the fact that I really do love my school. Mentally exhausted, I wanted nothing more than to curl up into a ball and sleep for a week or maybe in a month. The holiday cheer all around me didn’t help lift my spirits much either.
Unfortunately, while preparing an article and an interview for the January issue of Penumbra and trying to find like minded people to spread the word about Penumbra’s existence, I didn’t have time to take that week break. I kept slogging through my work before the Christmas break. I kept myself sane with a combination of my weekly TV show–I recently suffered an obsession with the show American Horror Story–lots of cuddles with my cats, and a promise to myself that I would get ahead on blogging and my personal writing during the break so January wouldn’t be as traumatic.
Now we’re at the other end of that much needed vacation and I feel a lot better. There are a couple historical articles I wanted to write that I never got around to, but I’ve spent lots of time with my friends and my boyfriend, and I’ve gotten a lot of personal writing done. Over the last two weeks my focus has been on my personal writing and my social life. I’ve gone out to see people I haven’t seen in months, I’ve written an awesome short-ish story, I’ve written a couple of blog posts and set up a couple interviews. I even printed out the manuscript for Moonshadow’s Guardian so that I can read through it and start edits.
There are a lot of other things I kind of wanted to do too that I never got around to. I wanted to spend more time working on the Penumbra blog. I wanted to write historical articles for Musa’s Aurora Regency imprint blog. I wanted to write a couple non-fiction articles. I wanted to spend more time researching blogs which might help me on my quest to get Penumbra out there. But I didn’t.
The reason why I didn’t do any of those things, instead only writing up a post to announce the new issue of Penumbra(the January issue is out and can be bought here) and working on this blog and a short story, isn’t because I couldn’t have done any of those things. I probably could’ve done all of those things if I’d worked at it hard enough.
I didn’t do any of those things because I needed time to relax. I needed to go out and see some friends who I hadn’t seen in a while. I needed to go out dancing. I needed to spend some quality time with my boyfriend. I needed to watch some anime, to immerse myself in someone else’s story. My boyfriend got me a Kindle for Christmas and I’ve spent a lot of the last two weeks in other people’s worlds. It’s awesome, and the best thing about everything I’ve read over the break is that it isn’t for school.
There are only two weeks after Christmas break before the semester ends this year, and while that leaves me with a lot to do, after the break I feel like I can do it. I’ve finished the story I spent the break working on and I’ve got notes for the next draft of Moonshadow’s Guardian. My brain, instead of being exhausted, is going a mile a minute, totally refreshed. My own personal writing will have to take a back burner over the next couple of weeks as I scramble to write essays and complete assignments, but I have a plan of attack for when I’m ready to start editing Moonshadow’s Guardian again and a couple of prompts to keep me writing a little bit.
Not very many people can just take two weeks away from their day job when they’re feeling burnt, but you can still make the most of every moment you have off. Spend your next weekend having a marathon of movies you really love. Go out and see a friend you haven’t seen in a while after work. We don’t always need time off to make ourselves feel better, but when we’re mentally exhausted, we need to see the people and do the things that make us happy.
What do you do when you’re mentally burnt out?